Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Catching Up

When I first started this blog, I though I'd be writing in it everyday. I've just been wrapping myself up in life so much these days, that I've hardly been able to sit back and take a look at it lately.

I just started a new job for the winter. Not sure if I'll be keeping it after the season, but it has really messed up my entire sense of time and schedule. My hours are usually from 2pm-10pm, and I'm not getting used to it at all. I usually write my blogs and do all my creative projects in the evening, but all i do now if come home, talk to my girl for a bit and head straight to bed. Then I don't wake up until about 12, giving me time to quickly eat, get ready and head back to work.

I think I'm going to have to make some changes soon. I don't like feeling like a slave to the system. The system should be my inspiration and muse. I feel as if I'm getting sucked into it, although I'm fully aware of it the entire time, I'm still going along with it.

The only time I feel as if things are going right is when I'm with my family and my girlfriend. And I've hardly even been able to see my friends at all. And to top it off, I haven't had a good home meal in weeks since my work hours over lapse with my dinner time, which was always my favorite and determining part about living at home.

It is a good learning experience though. Seeing the world from a different perspective. I like to be able to see things from all sides of the spectrum. it gives me a greater understanding of people and reasoning.

I find it sad to think that this is the way many people live out their lives. Where it's completely revolving around an uninspiring job, and only being lucky enough to to find time to spend with people they love, and doing things they love doing. But those are the things that life should be about. Those are the things that should occupy your time. I can't begin to tell you how much it angers me when my work schedules me for a day I told them I would not be working, and the way they react when I tell them that my job isn't on my list of priorities.

I think people need to remember that there will always be jobs out there. If they fire me for wanting to do the things I love, and the things that I live for - then GREAT! It'll only inspire me more. Time is such a precious thing. We're never getting more of it, only less. Life is just a countdown until the end. And though a lifetime might feel long - it isn't. And I don't want to waste one damn minute when I don't have to.

Anyways thats my rant for today.

I'm going to try to get my poetry and photos and videos flowing out of me again soon.

Peace and love,


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