There it goes.
So fast. Too fast. Its scares me so much. How does it fly by like that? I could cry.
I will cry.
I have no respect for time, and it kills me.
Why don't I cherish it?
Why would I ever want to pass time?
Why should I ever get impatient?
I dont think I was able to accomplish any of my new years resolutions.
I didn't go to the gym once.
I have even LESS blog posts than last year.
I have the same shitty job I had a year ago.
What do i have to show for this year?
It was a bad year.
It feels like I've said that a lot the past while.
Ever since my grandma died it has felt like a bad year, and each year worse and worse.
I suppose my greatest accomplishment for this year has been the relationships I have built with people.
I feels as though many of my frienships are stonger.
My girlfriend and I are a million times more in love.
My brother has become more than just my brother. He really is a best friend.
It was a very sober year. I spent a lot of time inside my own head. Maybe a little too much time. I think I'm ready to come out and play a bit more.
This coming year I am not going to make any specific resolutions. I dont like the idea of it. Too nitty gritty for my liking. But I will say this -
I want to keep building relationships with people. Everyone. I want to be interested in what other people have to say. I want to encourage others. I want to inspire others. I want others to inspire me. I want to weld friendships to my side.
I want to feel amazing physically. I want every breath I take to be one big real breath.
I dont want to waste a single day.
I want to surround myself with people who care.
I want to make people smile. Not smiles out of pity or smiles from a bad joke. But smiles of being happy to be here.
I want to feel less guilty about my actions and thoughts. I want to just go with it, without analyzing everything.
I want to love everyone for everything they do.
I want to listen to more music.
I was to disover new tastes and smells.
I want to connect with a new area of nature.
I want to learn.
I want to dance more.
Fuck this year is going to be great.
I've decided right now.
Its going to be incredible.
Are you in this with me reader?
Lets do it.
I'm feeling it.
I'm going to go start a bit early.
Happy New Year!