Friday, March 2, 2007

HURRAH!!! LIFE!!!!

Wow...

This was the first time in a looong time where I've had two sunny days on my weekend.

You have no idea how happy I was Sunday morning when I woke up and saw that beautiful warm glow through my bedroom window.

I don't even remember the last time I saw the sun...

It was refreshing to say the least.

I was actually jumping on my bed for joy....no joke.

But I also thought to myself...

Wouldn't it be great if it just kept on raining?Like non-stop for a whole year! Cause EVERYONE would just pack up and leave! Except for me...and people who actually like the rain...which I'm sure there aren't too many of...but I'm sure they're nice people...so i don't mind sharing the city with them. But Vancouver would be left just to us! How great would that be!?

....yeah...anyways.....

Heres some cool news! The No Escape essay I posted in my blog last week was published in The Tyee today....makes me feel like a real writer....feels nice. They even put it on the front page of their website! thetyee.ca

....of course the bastards spelled my last night wrong

oh well. its been getting a lot of response anyways!

So I'm on the skytrain yesterday.
Haven't been on there in a while.
And I see this fat man with a top hat.
Baggy black pants, and a tan button up shirt.
Now this guy was very distinct looking.
And I see him get off the skytrain at Columbia Station.
Yes I'm weird and i watch people...piss off.
Anyhow, I stay on the skytrain, and I see the train leave him behind.
But when the train arrived at 29th Ave Station, he was there!
It blew my mind! How did he do it? Is there was faster way to get from Columbia all the way to 29th?
I don't think so....
....so this weird looking fat guy with a top hat must have had a twin wearing the same thing and just happened to be at 29th ave. It is the only way i can think to explain it....

But i had a really nice day just walking about downtown. I haven't done that in a while.

I went and sat on the steps of the VAG for the first time. That is one interesting spot. So many strange characters around. a great place for people watching. The activists handing out fliers, the snobby shoppers trying to ignore the fliers, the people pretending to be interesting in their flyers and then throwing them in the garbage can down the street...And this is where my Witty Comment of the Weekend came out. It was said to one the save the seal activists.

"So a seal walked into a club..."

...yes brilliant, i know. But she had a good chuckle.

There were also girls giving out free hugs! They had a sign and everything...sound familiar youtube video? Oh well, good for them for keeping the idea alive. I figured it was a good deal though, and took 5!

Why is it that the women who wear the most make up, and expensive clothes, look the most unhappy? Is it just me? just something i noticed.

Its so amazing to see all the different types of people walking the streets of downtown Van.

I saw a very professional looking woman, in a business suit and all, carrying a big old chair down a busy street. Then stopped at a bus stop, sat in the chair, took out a book, and read.

I dropped a lighter from my pocket while walking along Granville. Didn't notice until a drug dealer told me. That was nice of him to do. He then asked me if I wanted to buy some weed....I almost felt obligated to buy some after his kindness....but ya...no.

And there was a homeless person with a sign that said "which sex is more generous?" and he had a box for change from each sex. I thought it was smart. I hope he makes millions.
....and I'll bet the women win.

My favorite bridge is the Granville street bridge. I know it isn't the prettiest, But does it ever have a view. I wish i hadn't lent my brother my digital camera so i could explain it. I'm never lending that thing out ever again. I've missed out on sooo many great photos.
But you know how the bridge has a bit of a hill on it? So it goes up and then dips down when you're heading southbound. So when you're looking at this on a nice sunny day, it looks like a never ending road to the clouds. And when i looked back at the amazing view of the city, there were big dark clouds over top. It felt like i was escaping from depths of hell and making my way on the highway to heaven. I guess you had to be there....if only i had my camera....fuck. The cheery on top was the sign saying "Limited Vision" in the middle of the bridge. love it :) You know that feeling you have the first few seconds after you wake up and everything still feels kinda like a dream? That exactly how i felt on that bridge. And then looking down at all the people enjoying life on Granville island. i felt like a giddy school boy. couldn't wait to get down there and enjoy the fun with everyone else. Definitely one of my favorite places.

I also hit up a little joint close to my gallery for some eats. $2.95 for 2 eggs, 5 sausages, hash browns, toast, and jam! Can't beat that! Plus I love the cute little Asian couple who own the small crappy place. Gotta support the little ones.
They gave me marmalade jam.
God I love marmalade jam.
I don't have it nearly enough.
I think its the most underrated jam there is.
Thats it, I'm bringing it back!

I put milk and sugar in my green tea for the first time.
Very different...
Kinda tasted like the green tea gelato i had a couple weeks ago.
Not bad a guess.

This sure is along blog...and I haven't even gotten into todays adventure.

Well I'll try and keep it extremely short.

I went to Stanley Park.
I love that park.
So sad to see all the fallen trees.
But i sat on the fallen trunks and wrote poetry.
And payed my respect to the century old wonders.
I roller bladed around the park a few times.
Why is it every time i go to Stanley Park, I end up making friends with a large group of beautiful Asian women while feeding ducks?
I'm telling ya fellas, if you like Asian girls...feed the ducks at Stanley Park.
I went and visited the Beluga whales.
What amazing creatures.
I wonder if most people understand just how amazing they are...

I had a moment at the park today.
One of those moments that stay in your head forever.
I was dashing on my blades through the tunnel at the beginning of the park.
I don't remember the last time i raced that that.
I just felt this amazing bust of energy.
Had that Unwritten son by Natasha Bedingfield playing on the pod.
Corny i know, but it was fitting.
Finally when i didn't have an ounce of energy left
I plopped myself on the closest bench I could find.
And it felt EXACTLY where i was supposed to be
Everything in the world seemed to be in sync and in rhythm with my mind and soul
I don't know how to explain it.
I sat under a blossoming cherry tree
In front of a pond.
Surrounded by weeping willows.
God i love weeping willows.
Sweet child of mine by the guns and roses was playing in my ears.
I know it doesn't sound like the most fitting tune....but for some reason...it was perfect.
There was a beautiful old tree that was laying in the water, totally knocked over from the strong winds in the winter.
It looked like something from a story book.
And there were swans.
Isn't that the most graceful bird?
I felt as if i was sitting before royalty.
The Asian girls really knew how to lour them over.
And at that very moment where i was realizing exactly where i was,
a burst of sunlight glazed itself over the pond.
I took in every speck of it.
I took in every life that was around.
It felt like everyone was just sharing this moment with me.
It felt like everyone knew.
There was this gentle old man. Walking by himself. He carried his coat under his arm, and had his other hand in his pocket. He walked so very slowly. Then stopped and looked out at the pond. He then took a comb out of his back pocket, and gave his hair a quick fix...and kept on walking.
I made up this entire story about him in my head.
Of him and his wife (who may have passed on now) coming to this spot together.
Hand in hand.
Sitting in the very same bench I was in.
And enjoying that very same moment together.
And now he comes everyday.
Alone.
Remembering.

The bench i sat on was dedicated to Daphine (Daphy Jean) Bray
Under her named read:

"When most people looked for rainbows, you took pleasure in the rain"

If you ever come by this bench. I hope you enjoy it.

I hope someday I have a bench dedicated to me.

A bench full of beautiful memories.

What a daydream boy i am eh?

Anyways this blog has gone on long enough today. I wish i could share more, but I'm sure most of you have given up already.

If you read it all....thanks....really.

I love this world!

Xoxo

Jordan

Sunday, February 25, 2007

lets jump

When was the last time you jumped in the air just for the sake of jumping?

Not to be silly

Not for fitness or sport

Or to get something done

But just because you can.

I sat beside and old man on a park bench

I read a book

He fed birds and squirles

There was a small boy jumping up and down in front of us

Just for the sake of jumping

The man turns to me and says "i would give anything to be able to do that again"

So from now on every morning I'm going to jump in the air as high as i can

Because today I can.


There is a jumping boy inside every man, no matter how old he gets.




Saturday, February 24, 2007

Life

Ever wonder if life is just one big thing that everyone else is in on but you?

And everything is just here for your experience only...

As if everyone is here to guide you to something bigger...

And the day you figure it out everyone just turns around to you and says:

"welcome"


I've seen the light, and what a beautiful light it is.


xoxo
jordan

Monday, February 19, 2007

little fluffy clouds

what a great day i had yesterday

its as my first day off in AGES where it wasn't raining

and the clouds were just beautiful

so i had a nice relaxing day of cloud watching

its been a really long week at work

so i drove around everywhere

and just watched the clouds pass by

and at the same time i made a video of it!











xoxo
jordan

Thursday, February 15, 2007

talking to myself at work

There were people doing construction on the side of the freeway today.
Not ON the freeway but beside it.
But still the traffic came to a halt!
This doesn't make sense to me.
I was 20 minutes late for work.
What are these people doing?
We get past the construction and we speed up again!
I guess people like to stop and watch construction workers on the side of the freeway.

I got a box of Valentines Day chocolate from my mom yesterday.
God i love that woman.
She had it sitting by my door when I got home from work.
I think I'll buy my mom and sister some flowers today.
Just for the hell of it.
I'm not a fan of valentines day giving.
I just like to give.
I wish I could give more.

My landlord came into the gallery this morning.
I'm a bit behind.
Well more than a bit.
I hate money.
I think its the plague of the earth.
I dislike anyone who loves the stuff.
This could be a utopia.

I have a photoshoot later this afternoon.
My first one in a long time.
I've actually given up modeling, if you don't already know.
Hate the entire industry.
Its so fake.
Everyone.
Its disgusting actually.
But this shoot is more for artistic purposes.
And the designer is a good friend.
Hes not looking to be king of the world, or to be rich.
Just wants to bring a little beauty.
And I dig that.

I started my Kaballah classes on Tuesday.
6 weeks of classes.
It's pretty interesting.
It's not really a religion, but sort of the basis of all religions.
But the rabbi brings up more questions than answers.
I have a lot of thinking to do.

I think I have been pronouncing my last name wrong.
What a thing to do.

Go see the movie Baraka.
Its incredible.
Maybe you'll think about the world differently.
And while you're are it go see:
Who Killed The Electric Car?
Why We Fight
and The Corporation.

Anyways thats whats up.

Time for my coffee.

xoxo

Jordan

Saturday, February 3, 2007

Tiny Thoughts

a stroll through the ravine
with my dog
without a leash
without any people
without our worries
with her ball
with my camera
with our tiny thoughts

she runs free
i walk slow
she has two thoughts in her head
i have two hundred
she beats me to the bottom of the hill

she barks for the ball
i throw it
shes blind
and cant see where it goes

she'll listen for a bounce
but she'll go the opposite way
she sniffs and smells
she only knows it by scent
its sometimes covered by leafs

it takes her half an hour to find the ball

i'm always patient
busy with my tiny thoughts
thinking about the beauty in the nature around me

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i think to look high at the trees
as the sunset torches the fall leafs
with its sharp colors it looks ablaze in the light

i think about the life of a tree
the patience as its sits for hundreds of years
taking in the sun
dancing in the wind
how it has marinated into the life of the earth
its roots grabbing hold to the dirt with all its might
soaking in the juices of the soil from the rain

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i think about the decades of wood beneath its bark
the seasons it has survived
the lives that has lived amongst its branches
the colors in the layers of its skin
it baths in life to its fullest riches

i want to be a tree next time

i look at my feet
holy shit
candy to my eyes
all day, all colors i have seen
have been red, brown, blue, yellow and green

(it should be spelled colure
because color lures you
i bet it used to be
then people forgot)

but this spectacular treat
at my feet
a small purple flower
that has survived so close to winter
at this time of year it would be considered a diamond in the rough
it entertains me like a television

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maggie finally strolls to my side
panting and moaning
tired to hell
could fall over on the spot
shes getting old
her slimy ball drooping from her mouth

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she drops it and barks
i tell her one more time
its gonna get dark
moist and disgusting
with as few fingers as i could
it is tossed
into the leafs
she has a better lead this time
she'll die for that ball

i say goodbye to my place
my enchanted land
my childhood hundred acre wood

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so many gentle moments in this spot
with so many loved ones
i'll be back again tomorrow

i beat her back up the hill

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For Maggie

Love Jordan

Thursday, February 1, 2007

oh you fucking bastards

As i happily enjoy my evening tv flick
tired and hungry after a long shitty day
i'm disturbed right at the climax the story
like a salesman barging right into my home
talking about this heavenly goodness tasteful delight
and all i have to do
is drive 2Km
to the nearest McD's
and pick up two chicken burgers
for 5% of the work i slaved over earlier today

i figure good deal
theres nothing in the fridge
haven't eaten all day
and could really go for a bite
they look pretty tasty in the picture

i do the procedure
and claim my order
not as quickly as i hoped
pollute the earth with my car
spend 20 minutes in that ugly drive through

yay
a paper bag
a receipt
4 napkins
a large paper bag
two wrappers
a staple
and a packet for my extra mayo
all to waste on the earth
hear on after this moment

and for me
two lives
two buns
and whatever crap they put in them
I must bare the smell
the whole drive home

i'm drooling

I race with time to my television
to catch what i can
of the interesting show i was watching earlier

I MISSED THE WHOLE THING
i'll never know what happened
fuck these burgers had better be good

i unwrap my first
cant wait to bite in
what the shit?
Idiots forgot the top of the bun

I'm pissed
i unwrap the other
the same
jesus christ!
What was distracting this person?
Bad break up?
No sex with wife?
Behind on bills?
Death in the family?
Failing in life?
Cute co-worker?
Stoned?

Whatever it is
I'm not so pleased
as how my evening after work turned out to be

I take a photo
put the two together
enjoy what i can
and figure it might make a nice story later.


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xo
jordan